It’s been two weeks since I’ve last posted here. And before that, I’ve been posting quite sporadically. But I really felt called to write today’s post – I wanted to talk about intuitive creativity.
We all express ourselves in so many ways. I tried my hand at several things, before I realized that I found my refuge in writing, photography and music (not that I compose, just that I choose to play pieces which reflect the current state of my soul). For others, they may be drawn to art, perhaps song; maybe it’s just making something with their hands, be it woodwork or plaster.
When you find your own way that works for you, it’s like a door has been opened. And I know this. Until recently I was trying to find my own way of expressing myself through creativity, and for such a long time, I tried to fit myself into boxes that were not my packaging. I think that all along, deep down I knew that writing was the way that I felt like I could have my thoughts and feelings and spirit spill out onto paper, but I tried denying it to be someone I thought I should be, but who I was not.
[There have also been some changes physically in my life – I’ve had to move around, and this was caused by someone coming into my life. And this wasn’t exactly a good change – but it’s only going to last about another week, and then I can settle back again and finally feel happy. Not to mention the moon in retrograde has definitely put me all off myself as well.]
Finding my creative outlet was like finding a piece of me I didn’t know existed, or had forgotten about. If there’s one thing I want everyone to do, it’s to find how they can express themselves – whether it’s through handicraft, painting, composing, writing, or singing, just find what your soul feels called to. And you’ll know when you find it.
But what I wanted to discuss in this post was being creative intuitively (creating from what you intuition tells you).
One important example is my blog. I used to feel like I had to churn out at least one post a week, ideally more. Thus, this led to me starting to dislike blogging and also publishing half-hearted writing; nobody wins in that situation.
Then recently I thought to myself, “Well, if I don’t feel liking writing a post, I don’t have to.” And I know, I know, why on Earth didn’t I think of it before?
[spoiler: I get too committed]
Anyway, this changed me. I know only write when I feel called to; when my subconscious is telling me that what I have in my head could benefit others, or when I feel I have too much in my head and just need to share it with others.
If you already know how best you express yourself, sometimes it can be a trap, and you get labelled “the artist/writer/composer/singer” – and you feel that you have to do what it is that keeps you under that umbrella.
But I want you to realize what I did – you should create from what your intuition tells you. If you don’t feel like creating/expressing yourself for three months – it’s okay. If you feel like doing it three times a day – that’s okay too.
Society makes us feel like we have to fit a certain label. “She’s the artist” “He’s the musician” “She travels” – and this is mostly because of social media, and the fact that we don’t show who we really are, instead choosing to post only the best moments from our lives and hide the parts of us that we think don’t fit the image that we think people see.
But it doesn’t have to be like that. If you don’t feel called to write/paint/whatever for weeks on end, that’s fine. The important thin is that you recognize when you are called to do so again, and then when you are told to stop.
Creativity cannot be forced. It has to come from deep within, where your soul and dreams and feelings and spirituality exist. Only then can you create something that is utterly and wholly you.